I would like to decline your offer to appoint me as Chairman of the Accountancy Department. It has always been said that for one to excel in what he does, his heart should be in what he is doing. And I just don't have the heart to serve as a full-time administrator.
I love being a teacher. I would never regret leaving my job as an auditor to pursue a teaching career. Being with students from the underserved middle-class and shaping their future gave me a sense of fulfillment and a strong sense that I am doing something socially relevant. I guess that when you first interviewed me, you already saw this youthful idealism burning inside me. And up to this day, that fire keeps on burning.
I know that the adminisrative position of Chairman is also a vital position in business education. However, I am not the type of person who works behind the lines mapping strategies and dealing with "soldiers" who do the work in the battlefield. Instead, I am THE soldier who loves to get his hands dirty while fighting the battle in the frontline. I AM a teacher. I want to be in the classroom and not behind a desk in an office. I want to work with the students, not with problematic adults and stifling bureaucracies whose inefficiencies and penchant for politicking and protection of self-interest has caused me frustrations more than anything else during my stint as SC adviser and as the B.S.A. OIC Coordinator.
Some said that there's lack of maturity in my part for having such a myopic point-of-view specially in deciding on such an important "career move". Maybe that's a valid criticism. But I'd like to tell you some of my plans that I haven't really discussed with a lot of people. After serving out my contract with FEU, I would be leaving this institution. Because I have sensed a "change" coming ever since Mam Echauz came into position, and it's a change that I don't want to be a part of because it goes directly against my reason for choosing FEU - not DLSU, ADMU, UST or UA&P - as the venue to share my knowledge and my talent.
Leaving FEU would also serve as a perfect opportunity for me to finally pursue my dream to shift to another field. I love teaching, but I'm not really into business education. I would rather teach Sociology, which I have had a strong affinity for ever since third-year college when I found out that I am trapped in a course that I really don't like. I am actually planning to take a Master's Degree in Sociology in U.P. starting the next schoolyear. I hope it would come to fruition.
Thank you for the offer, Sir. I am humbled by your faith in my abilities. But I just can't commit myself into something my heart is not into.